Al fin encontré este...

Why can't we be together?!

On the morning I wake up against my own will, just because that’s how it’s meant to be. A few months ago I was wakening by your side, you were the first thing I saw and I could feel that warmth, that joy, the desire of just hold you in my arms and remember you’re the best thing of my complicated life.

But you’re not here any longer, I don’t wanna wake up. When I open my eyes I look around me and all I see is the wall, furniture and other silly things meaningless without you.

Our relationship hasn’t been easy, I know, but it hurts so badly. All I ever wanted in life is being with you, living with you, marrying you. Somehow I’ve started to accept this new stage of my life thinking that in just 3 more months you would be here, with me once more.

But that won’t happen, school won’t let you, and I feel so disappointed, so sad. I can’t take this. I’ve been pretending to be strong but I’m not, you know it.

Now I just sit here once more, in OUR bed, I touch the sheets and I can’t stop crying, typical of me. 

You gave meaning to my life, when I was so lost, dying, you brought my smile back. And here in this big city, I realize I’m alone, all by myself. I go out, trying to distract my mind, but I just feel worst. I visit those places where I used to take your hand, to hold you, to kiss you…

I don’t know what I’m doing here, I don’t know if I made the right decision. You say you’re proud of me, and I know you are but that doesn’t ease my pain! 

I’m just one more girl in this crowded city and no one gives a damn about me. So I’m begging you, please, baby please come to me, I can’t live like this anymore, every night I cry, I can’t sleep.

I feel like I’m falling into peaces again and I don’t wanna start hurting myself, but if I fall I think I won’t be able to stop it. Not this time.

My love is in you, my fall will be for you.

If you’re the one to hurt me, I’ll bleed forever.